what i love about you...
your tenacity, your spunk, your raw ENERGY
they way you laugh,
and the smile that melts my heart,
i love your eyes, the evil glare
and that cute little nose
the way you talk, your sarcasm and dramatic outbursts
i love how you stand out in a crowd.
how bold and confindent you are
and yet your stunningly beautifull.
i love how your wild and tough,
yet cute and fragile like a little angel.
a Queen in my eyes, yet the absolute
best friend a guy could ever hope for.
why do i still feel like this?
im all jumbled inside.....like a wrecking ball tore through me,
crumbling everything i thought could be.
close range shotgun blast to the chest, perferating my very being,
gushing blood and searing pain.
open heart surgery.....a slip of the knife,
ripping the vessel from the heart, spraying out the last beat.
left my sole on fire.....raging,
burning every last nerve, searing till there is nothing left.
love.....is it realy love?
totaly enamered, eyes glazed over.
dont see anything but her.
thoughts of her, like a broken record,
run through my mind.
lost track of time, friends.....
nothing
what am i doing here....
its like i exist for nothing.
a daily routien
day in, day out
wake up, go to work.
come home, and go to bed.
only to do it again, and again.
life is flying by me.
ive got nothing to hold on to.
no one to hold on to.
the one i love, loves someone else.
the only ones that even know me,
my friends, dont understand me.
this world has sucked me in,
and rolled me around till i was lost.
i follow a path that goes no where.
a lonely path, dark and cold.
i dont know where im going,
or where ill end up.
im existing.....and slowly falling apart.
just another speck,
in the realm of lost souls.
trying to fi
it creeps in, slowly, like a parasite.
there, missing, you cant loose it.
feeling, lost, or im lost within.
love, gone, once there.
hole, dark, empty of life.
rift, torn, shards of pain.
fire, raging, engulfing everything.
searching, starving, for comfort.
addiction, desires, unsatified.
thoughts, dreams, ravenge my mind.
wonder, interested, in whats to come.
im in the dark.
you pulled me out,
for a brief moment in time.
then shoved me back in.
this time im tortured,
by memories...of us.
i want to cry,
ive lost it all.
im all alone.
in the dark...i cant see,
i cant breath.
no one to talk to.....
i feel like giving up,
giving in....to the pain.
ive been here before,
i thought i excaped.
now im chained,
to the cold stone floor.
that is my life,
my soulless life.
my heart,
my soul....ripped out.
here i am.....reaching out,
trying to grasp whats left.
hold on to all that i have left,
my sanity.....
beatin into submission...
forced to build this cold brick wall.
a wall ar
I want to hold her
I want to love her
I want to comfort her
I want to be with her
I want to feel her pain
I want to heal her heart
I want to see her smile
I want to see her happy
I want to hear her sing
I want her to hold me
I want her to love me
I want her to comfort me
I want her to be with me
I want her to feel my pain
I want her to heal my heart
I want her to see me smile
I want her to see me happy
I want her to hear me sing
I just want her to be happy
Have you ever meet anyone that makes you happy,
that makes your heart melt with every little thing they do,
that may be opposite in size but more than makes it up in personality,
that thinks the same and likes the same things
Someone that sparks a fire that burnes so deep in your chest that you worry just to know that someday they may not be there
Someone so beautiful inside and out that it hurts just to think of em
Someone that's always on your mind, running through your thoughts and dreams
A person that you just want to hold tight and never let go
It's an ember embedded in the very heart of me,
Burning for the next touch, for the next look
She comes close and the ember roars into a fire,
that rages through my veins like lava,
Growing bigger, racing faster with every touch,
Its pounding now…..searing every nerve,
Spreading like wildfire engulfing everything,
I stagger…my mind and heart racing,
My arms wrapped around her holding her tight,
my heart thumping loud enough to hear.
A sweet rush of euphoria washes over me,
Purging the flames… leaving only an ember.
Waiting to burst into flames once again.
She's my best friend
Ill do anything just to see her smile
She means more to me than anything
Ill be there for her always
To protect and love, to hold
She has breathed life into my dead life
Pulled me from the depths of depression
Giving me a chance, a companion
She has found my heart, my innocence
I want to find her heart, her innocence
She's is an angel, I see it in her eyes
But her heart is not there, only pain
She has been hurt before
Ill do anything to see her happy
I want to take away the pain
Anything, ill do anything for her
Bring her a rose, just to see her face light up
Keep her company when her horse is sick
what i love about you by angryamerican, literature
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what i love about you
i love your personality, the way you smile at me.
i love how you dont wear makeup, you dont need it to be pretty.
the way you laugh, and how you dance your little victory dance.
i love that you can look cute no matter what, even angry.
how rough and tumbled you are, your not like most girls,
the caluses on your hands, and the red streaks through your hair.
i love how you ride your horse how you care for him, your so natural, beautifull
how passionate you are with your horse, and riding
the fact that you drive a big truck, and your not afraid to use it, thats hot
i love how fragile you look yet how tough you are
how you are drivin
I sit and think.
I wonder why.
Hold back my tears.
Try not to cry.
It all seems hopeless.
Just a dream.
Where is the patch of heaven, meant just for me?
I never thought heartbreak, felt this bad.
but you've opened my eyes, helped me to see.
I had a taste of heaven, and now I'm wanting more,
But how's it feel to want, you've already shown me
the door.
My love has all dried up for you, but there will be
someone else.
They will set my heart free.
And I'll be their taste of heaven.
Just like you were....for me.
Current Residence: a prison of my own design Favourite genre of music: country/ hard rock Favourite photographer: Redcobalt Operating System: window xp pro Wallpaper of choice: i hate wallpaper.... Skin of choice: hmm deap fried chicken skin yummm Favourite cartoon character: marvin the martian Personal Quote: i work with my hands and think with my heart
Unemployment does not cover alcohol....I have been off work for 2 weeks now. And wow...i have never ever been this bored. I have no money to do anything.....or go anywhere.
Its come time for me to do away with DA. Its time to disconnect from my old habits and change my life. I have hung onto a relationship that just wont go anywhere. As much as i wish it would , nothing will change. And as long as i have a connection to this person i wont let it go and move on. So its time to let it go. And this is one of those connections to that relationship i need to sever. As soon as i can figure out how to delete my ID here ill be gone. So all of you that have my myspace keep in touch. Feel free to say hi every now and then. take care yall.
ok ... i have to say i'm sorry. i was looking at my main page, and i didn't see your icon on my friends list ... so i went to find you in my manage friends section and make sure the little friend box was checked ... and i couldn't find you. then i realized, i'm not watching you!!! ahhhh so sad. but it's all fixed now